Christmas day looms, my chest constricts.
It's not that i don't like the idea of Christmas, because I do. I'm totally into the holiday cheer, and the tree and the lights (my family unfortunately doesn't do lights and our tree sucks but that's another story that one day will no doubt be regurgitated for Oprah), and the short bread, and the presents. I love presents. Saying that, it took me eleven years to realize that my family should never be put in the one place ever. ever. My entire family has something to say, I come from a line of academics musicians, designers, liberals, chain smokers, alcoholics, 70's throwbacks. I'm going to go crazy, I'm doomed. The only way I made it through last Christmas was with copious amounts of alcohol, and even that ended with some family truths I'd rather not have know. Holidays suck. Suck, suck, suck. If miracles do exist then Santa will let me dodge the New Years bullet... Come on now, I've been a good girl *winning smile*.
My mum just dropped the D word a few days ago. We've been kinda avoiding the issue for a few years now, my mum conveniently postponing and scurting around that discussion. Then she just drops it like an A bomb a few days ago. We're getting a new dog!!! *happy dance*. I want a pitbull we can call Veronica. Our current dog has been sulking though, Maggie is very sensitive almost to the point of being neurotic. She's quite Paul Anka-ish, except by not looking like an over sized mop she doesn't really pull it off. Still, she was in the room when we raised the D word and the P word and me and my mum where looking at an exact replica of what she would have looked like as a puppy (we adopted her when she was about eighteen months) and I think she knows she's going to have competition because she just drooped, and ever since then she's just been really strangely affectionate. She even let me walk her to the video store. Knowing that I always spend half an hour deciding, leaving her in the blistering heat/ freezing cold. I've borrowed the entire first season of One Tree Hill and cannibalized it in under three days, I ordered season two off ebay and I hope it arrives by Tuesday but my experience with internet ordering have never really been that good, I alway seem to get everything about a week after it's meant to come. But, oh my god, I love it. I remember not liking it when I first watched it years ago, when it was partnered with The OC, but now I just love it. I love Nathan and his abs (beeautiful, beautiful abs) and Peyton and her Peytonness. I officially have a new show to obsess over. Good for me.
Speaking of the OC, Gossip Girl is awesome. No I correct myself, Blair is awesome. In her Blairness. The first few episodes are just being aired here, but I've been watching them off fanpop and sidereel.com so I'm up to date. Plus I don't have cable, more my shame. I actually kinda like how much they've gone off track from the books because lets be honest. The books sucked. I loved them, but they where crappy. I especially love the whole Blair/Chuck thing. The actor who plays Nate could realistically be replaced by a very pretty cardboard cut out, and Serena has been disappointing beige. But I love Lilly! She's the best adult cast addition of any show I've seen for a really long time. She's so good I've long forgiven her creepy resemblance to Kirsten.
Happy Holidays flist! Seasons Greetings, may all your Christmas (Hanukkah, Kwanzaa) wishes come true (Ipod, Laptop, Matt Czuchry).